Finding Center

Our world is spinning. COVID-19, social distancing, masks, fear, anger, opinions, social justice, darkness of our country rising to the surface & into the light, polarities, one person says this & the other says that, protests, riots, conspiracy theories, food shortages, triggers, & on & on. This is only what’s going on collectively. We all have our own individual hardships & tasks to handle as well. It is a lot. There is so much happening all at once, it can seem like it is just spinning by so fast. As soon as it passes, another trial comes up, & as soon as that is one done, another, & then it’s back to the first one & all over again - over & over the cycle goes. The same fear that we just dealt with, the same privilege we just addressed, the same anger…it all returns & returns & returns.

Is it chaos though? Or is it art?

If we don’t hold onto our center, we can get caught up in the spinning & spin with it. Everything becomes a blur & we see nothing. But, if we hold onto our center, we can stay grounded & see the rest as a beautiful art piece. Yes, there is hardships. Yes, there is evil & darkness going on. But, within that, we are seeing that there is darkness & we are addressing it, which is good & is light. We are mourning, grieving, reflecting, & growing, & that is good.

But, where is our center? Have we found it? Are we clinging to it?

For many of us, quarantine reminded us of what we find important & what we love. It also showed us what we do not love & what no longer serves us. It was an opportunity for us to find our center & realign. And then...we stepped out of our homes only for the world to start spinning again. More division, polarities, anger, hardship & work that must be done. It can feel like too much.

It can feel like it is spinning in pure chaos & we are seasick from the nonstop movement. 

We can’t forget the lesson we learned. We can’t forget where our center is.

For me. I know my center. It’s resting in the present moment, knowing that what is here is good, knowing that I am good, & knowing the world is good. I am reminded of my center when I am in nature, when I share soul talk with Sisters, & when I sit with my coffee & just pour my heart out to my journal. Sunshine, meditation, laughter, dance, touching the earth with my feet…they all ground me & help me find my center & help me stay there in it.

What grounds you? What gives you roots and keeps you planted firmly on the ground? Is it prayer? Is it a good nap? Is it your breath? Is it resting in who you are and knowing you are loved? What is it to you?

The energy of the world is intense right now. It is heavy. It is hard. So, it’s ok if we aren’t centered. It’s ok if we get caught up and don’t act as our highest self right now. It’s ok if we are struggling. 

It’s ok if we find our center, lose it, & find it again.

Do I always stay centered? Hell, no. It is a constant work to remind myself, to pull myself up, to get myself back to my center. I can so easily get pulled down into the heaviness & my mind takes control. It causes me to feel stuck & lethargic & I just can’t bring myself to do the things I need to do to get to my center.

But, I also know that it’s ok if I am not ok & I don’t have a hold of my center. Because what we are going through is hard. It's ok to take time to mourn, process, & feel it all. But, there always comes a time when it is time to find my center again.

We all have a limit. It is ok to spin, to move, to feel, to rage. But, there comes a time when it is time to get grounded again. We must trust that we will know when it is time. 

We do not have to stay in the chaos.

We can shift our perspective, find our center & see the beauty everywhere. We can handle the dark because we can see the dark is a teacher. We can handle the dark because we have our light.

Have you found your center? Where is it? Are you in your center or are you spinning? What steps can you take to stay in your center today?

I’m in this with you, Dear Sisters. We are all in this together; we will get through it. This year has been difficult, but I wholeheartedly believe that it is only the beginning of some major birthing of good. We must feel the labor pains before the birth.

You got this. Keep believing in the good. Keep finding your center & just watching it all as a work of art. The dark, the light, the good, the terrible - all of it mixed together in one beautiful piece of art that we call life.